The Hunger Stay

My day is coming close to an end and I feel like it has been very productive even though I didn't seem to do much. Parenting is such a fulfilling job. This evening was a bit trying because Camden is going through this phase of getting really worked up and hyper right before bed. I'm left exhausted by the time he is finally asleep. We had a good day today and I'm grateful for having today and everyday to spend with him, even though I am so sick of that little red monster Elmo.
On a more personal level, I feel as though God has been tugging at my heart about changes in my life. I desire so much to get plugged in somewhere as far as church. I believe it is extremely important to be in fellowship with other Christians. I am grateful for the few people in my life that are there for me emotionally and spiritually, but it doesn't take the place of the fellowship and accountability of the structured church. Ever since leaving our first real home church (I guess you would call it) it's been a struggle to find the church where we can plug in. It doesn't help when I feel as though my husband and I are desiring different things when it comes to the "church". Don't get me wrong, it is not a wedge that is between us. I think we are coming at it from different needs and wants and it is a bit of a conflict that has yet to be resolved. We talk about it and are working on finding the solution. But it's always in the back of my head. I struggle with wanting to find that place to fit into. I have this hunger that is constant. As I told my one sisters recently, I don't want to lose that hunger because I always want more of God and His love and grace. Yet I feel like I'm surviving on bread crumbs when what I really need is a steak. I can only pray and believe that as I continue to seek God in all of His knowledge that He will direct our paths and order our steps. In the mean time, I will just continue to seek out God and continue to trust in Him.
On a much less serious note, Mike is in the other room working on his on blog. This is going to be interesting to say the least. I can only imagine what he is stirring up in that head of his to talk about. We will have to wait and see.
For now I'm saying goodnight. I am sure that I will end up having something else to say at a later time.