Thursday, March 26, 2009

Feeling So-So

This weeks seems to be dragging. I can't wait for this week to be over and start fresh with next week. ugh.

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Let see what new...

We have all been sick this week. I have not been too bad but Camden, Merci, and Mike all seem to have had it the worst. It's the yucky upper respiratory stuff. Coughing, sneezing, runny nose, yada, yada, yada. Camden developed an ear infection due to all the draining. Merci has not been too bad, just the yucky cough. Mike has been knocked out by it all day today. Fortunately he was off today, otherwise I'm sure he would have called in sick. He literally spent the ENTIRE day in bed sleeping. He slept until noon and rested on the couch while I took a nap for awhile. Then he went back to bed at 3:00 and didn't get back up until after 6:00. Poor guy. My hope is that by the start of next week we will all be back on our feet.

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A week or so ago I made myself an appointment for the anxiety I have been struggling with. I saw my Dr. yesterday. I feel as though I am under the best care. My Dr. is amazing and compassionate. Through many tears and a check of my blood pressure not once but twice (because I was so worked up about talking about it) we worked through all that has been going on in my life. It seems since having Merci there has been the gradual series of events that have brought me to where I am now. So I am now on a very small dose of medication to help me get back to myself. I know some do not feel comfortable talking about such issues, but for me right now it is what it is. I know that God is fully capable of stepping in and healing me. I also know that he gives Dr.'s wisdom. Some could go 'round and 'round about medications used for such issues. But I will tell you as someone who is where I am, I just want to feel myself again. If getting to that point again means taking a low does of something to get there, than so be it. I do not want to sound cold about the issue, but it has been tough. I hate feeling robbed of my life, not being able to go anywhere without the fear of having an attack. I hate not being able to focus on my kids like I love to. It has been hard. I long to be myself again and I feel like I am on my way. I just ask each of you, if you could, please pray for me. I have fears of adverse reactions to the meds. I do not take medication often and it is only when necessary. So I ask that if you could pray that my body works with the meds. I would greatly appreciate it.

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I am working on an "About Me" post. Just a few little tidbits for those who are new to my blog. Be sure to check back soon for that.

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I also wanted answer those who asked about my iHeartFaces photo of the little girl. The photo was taken of my friends daughter about two years ago at a bridal shower we were attending. The photo was taken with no-flash on a FujiFilm S5100. It was my first "good" digital camera before stepping up to my Canon Rebel XT. That is one of my favorite photos. ;)

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Well, I'm sorry for this lousy excuse for a post. I will be sure to have the "About Me" post up soon. I hope to have some new photos as well. Until next time...

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7 comments:

He & Me + 3 said...

Hope everyone feels better soon. I have been anxious too lately. Hmmm. Wonder what is going on. I'm going to the Drs...in April about it.

McCrakensx4 said...

Hoping and praying for health at your house. Take care.

T said...

There is sooo much controversy over pills like that and it drives me crazy. I don't understand it....yes I believe it's handed over way to easily sometimes but I also truly believe that some people need it and it can absolutly help them feel better! I hope it does for you and that no one feels the need to make you feel bad about it. It's honestly been something I've been battling with my hubby here latley, I am having some of the same issues but he is STRONGLY against me taking something and that makes it all the worse. I get panic just talking to him about it. I will be praying for you! I hope it gives you the boost you need to feel like yourself again!

Teri said...

How are you feeling since taking the meds? We have been praying for you.
Don't let anyone make you feel bad for doing what you need to help yourself. You're the one who has to struggle with the problem,don't feel guilty.
Nobody knows what a BEAST this anxiety is who has not experienced it. God uses MANY ways for healing.
If taking a prescription helps to get you to healing, thats a good thing,then PRAISE GOD!

Kelli W said...

I hope everyone starts feeling better soon! We had the same thing at our house last week!! I have to say, I completely understand what you mean about not feeling like yourself....I feel like that sometimes too! I hope your new meds help you feel better quickly!

Sweet Peripety said...

i will probably be on med the rest of my life for depression so noooooooooo judging here! i hope it helps you girl!!!!!!!! love ya!!!!!!

Elaine at Matters of the Heart) said...

Praying that the meds work. God knows what he is doing, and only you have to be comfortable... Praying that you are back to your self in no time...

Love the new header..