"The view from here is nothing near
To what it is for You
I tried to see Your plan for me
But I only acted like I knew...."
"My Lord, my King, my urge to sing
And praise the things above
No words can say the glorious way
You changed me with your love
He's brought me low, so I could know
The way to reach the heights
To forsake my dreams, my self esteem
And give up all my rights"
Trials Turned to Gold by Keith Green
My heart has been searching, seek, and drawing closer and closer to the Lord. But let me assure you it hasn't come without cost. But I am ever aware that the things that I am willing to lay down for Him, will be turned around for His glory.
I feel as though I have come to a crossroads. My life has been lived (in recent years) going through the motions. My heart has never strayed but I also was not allowing myself to open up the area, the rooms of my heart that I have kept secret. Insecurities, pride, and fear had taken hold of my heart. The places where God should have had control was being held captive. I didn't know how to surrender. I still don't quite know how to fully surrender. But I know that I'm learning. John 9:23 “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me." I am learning about taking up the cross DAILY and surrender to Him.
In this process I am becoming more and more confident in who I am. It is so funny to me to look back on my life thus far. I see a young woman who once thought she knew herself, someone who had it all together, and had nothing to fear. But now, I really KNOW who I am and all of those years lived thinking I knew who I was, when in fact it was all a cover up. I am not saying that I was fake, but unsure. I am still learning who I am and I am thankful that it's not about me in the end any way. So I am stripping off the old man and allowing God to reveal the me He has always desired me to be. Ephesians 4:22 "throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life..."
Thank you Lord for mercies that are new every day. Thank you Lord for grace that is way more than I deserve. And thank you Lord for teaching me more than I've ever known about who you are.
Thank you for reading friends.
Until next time...TTFN
To what it is for You
I tried to see Your plan for me
But I only acted like I knew...."
"My Lord, my King, my urge to sing
And praise the things above
No words can say the glorious way
You changed me with your love
He's brought me low, so I could know
The way to reach the heights
To forsake my dreams, my self esteem
And give up all my rights"
Trials Turned to Gold by Keith Green
My heart has been searching, seek, and drawing closer and closer to the Lord. But let me assure you it hasn't come without cost. But I am ever aware that the things that I am willing to lay down for Him, will be turned around for His glory.
I feel as though I have come to a crossroads. My life has been lived (in recent years) going through the motions. My heart has never strayed but I also was not allowing myself to open up the area, the rooms of my heart that I have kept secret. Insecurities, pride, and fear had taken hold of my heart. The places where God should have had control was being held captive. I didn't know how to surrender. I still don't quite know how to fully surrender. But I know that I'm learning. John 9:23 “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me." I am learning about taking up the cross DAILY and surrender to Him.
In this process I am becoming more and more confident in who I am. It is so funny to me to look back on my life thus far. I see a young woman who once thought she knew herself, someone who had it all together, and had nothing to fear. But now, I really KNOW who I am and all of those years lived thinking I knew who I was, when in fact it was all a cover up. I am not saying that I was fake, but unsure. I am still learning who I am and I am thankful that it's not about me in the end any way. So I am stripping off the old man and allowing God to reveal the me He has always desired me to be. Ephesians 4:22 "throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life..."
Thank you Lord for mercies that are new every day. Thank you Lord for grace that is way more than I deserve. And thank you Lord for teaching me more than I've ever known about who you are.
Thank you for reading friends.
Until next time...TTFN
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