is the biggie that seems to always get in my way. Anybody out there with me on this one? It is a daily struggle to push past these constant nagging thoughts that tell the opposite of what I really believe in my heart to be true of myself. For instance...I am an artsy person. I know this is someone I've always been deep down but I've never fully allowed myself to be that person. Because, I'm hearing these thoughts that tell me I'm going to be rejected, that people are going to think I'm odd, or that I'm going to fail at being artistic (which I don't believe one can). These thought steam from so many places in my past where outside circumstances and people made me believe these thoughts to be true. Just today I was listening to Beth Moore speaking on having a clear, sound mind. And she said that strongholds are those thoughts that we think over and over in our heads, and then begin to believe that they are true of ourselves. This is OH SO VERY true of my own mind. Many years ago as a teenager I began tapping into those artistic parts of who I am and as it came out in how I carried myself or in my appearance, I was teased. Rather than be encouraged to be myself I was shot down. I felt the need to then conform to what I thought others wanted to see from me. My life since then has been a struggle to be a genuine version of who I really am. And using the artsy part of life it just one area. There are so many areas that this spills over into.
But I am more than ever ready to ...
I'm ready to allow God to shatter my fears of rejection, my fears of being hurt, my fears of failing and simply let me be what He wants me to be. Even if it means it coming at the cost of certain relationships changing or the risk of being hurt. If it means being true to who He created me to be than bring it on. My life is not my own any way. I am ready to get rid of all the thoughts of who I believe everyone wants me to be and simply be me! So I'm saying so long to the self I've known and hello to a new me.
I know the change isn't going to come over night. But I've already (in the past couple of years) felt that I've allowed God into parts of my heart I hadn't before. Therefor allowing Him to change me and make me new. I'm ready for bigger, better changes that He is going to do as I continue to open myself up to Him.
I love this song and for this time in my life it couldn't be more perfect!
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"The supreme sculptor has fashioned us for all to see. We are His exhibits - testimony to His talents."
You are His excellent handiwork, His perfectly crafted masterpiece! He created you for glory and for beauty. No wonder the Psalmist said "I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works, and that my soul knoweth right well" (Psalm 139: 14).
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