Do Ya Ever Just Wonder?

I've been thinking a lot lately, which is not out of the ordinary for me. But I've been thinking about my life so far. I thought about some of the choices I've made, some good, some not so good. I have wondered how my life would be had some of those times in my life been different. For example:

~I have often wondered what my life would have been like had my parents not gotten divorced. I honestly have to say that in this situation, had my parents stayed together, I may not be the person I am today. I was friends with some kids in grade school who could have really made an influence on me that would not have been positive. Because of the divorce I moved away and came back to my school several years later, a time in which I was old enough to understand better. I eventually made new friends, better friends.

~I have wondered what my life would have been like had I gone to college like I had intended. Now don't get me wrong, I am very glad that I meet and married my husband. But prior to meeting him, I had planned to go to college and major in psychology. Would I have done it? Would I have followed through and pushed myself? Who would I have roomed with? Would I have changed my mind and changed majors?

~I have wonder if I would have made better choices in friends would have been a better friend? Would I be a better friend now because of it?

~I have wondered what it would be like to have enough money to live a comfortable life. To have enough to pay off all that I owe. To own a house I truly love. To have a car that fits my whole family and is dependable. To have enough to give to my family whose needs are just the same.

OK, so the last one is something more like a fantasy. I feel sometimes that the last one is just a dream. It's fun to dream in that case. Mike and I have talked before about such a small amount of money (in the worlds eyes) would go so far for us. Even $10,000. Geeez, that would be nice even the small amount that it is. I see all these shows on TV where people when money; anything from a few thousand dollars to millions. And yet here we are just living day to day, week to week trying to make the best of what we have like so many other families. It's nice to dream of what we would do. So, I always think of $100,000. What I could do with that kind of money. I could by a house (put a big chunk down at the very least), have a new car, pay off my debt, and still have money to help out those we love. Maybe somewhere we have a long lost relative that we will inherit some funds from. See, isn't it fun to dream? Do ya ever just wonder....