Here I Go Again

It is way to early to being doing anything, especially blogging. It is not yet 5:30 and here I sit typing this message as if I have nothing better I could be doing (say..like sleeping). My sleep patterns are changing and I think God is in some way preparing me for the months ahead. Even my own son's sleep patterns are changing, waking much earlier than he usually does. Let me tell you though, getting up at 8:45 a.m. is much better than 5:00 a.m.!

I received a phone call earlier this evening from a dear friend of mine who was about to have her baby. She was taken in at the last minute for a C-section. I then got another call around 11:00 that the baby was born and all went well. I'm quite excited. Though I'm also a bit terrified by the thought of having a C-section. I would much rather go natural. If it were something that both the baby and I needed by all means I'd want what's best. But in my case, because of my spinal fusion, I am unable to have a spinal during the surgery which means I'd have to be knocked out completely. I'm have literally prayed that God give His grace to have our baby girl naturally so that I won't have to miss anything. I can't imagine not being able to hear her first cries or to touch that tiny face. Either way, I ultimately want what's best for both Merci and I. Yes, by the way, she already has a name. It's Merci Alexandra. There is a story behind her name, but I shall save that for another time when my mind is much more clear.

My dear sweet boy is growing so fast and I can not believe he is going on 3 years old. I watch him every day in amazement. He truly is becoming a little boy. My baby is not a baby any more. He actually carries on conversations with us as if he was all grown up. That scares me!

I love these few pics. I have had them stored on my little Kodak 3.2 camera, that's been in my purse for weeks. Camden just decided one day to get Daddy's shirt and put it on. He felt so proud, as you can see, that he did it all by himself. I also love the picture of him and his daddy that I took at a ceremony for an award that my mom received. I can't get over how much he looks like his daddy! I love my boys soo very much!!

Well, my hubby is due to be up sometime here in the next 20 minutes or so. I think I may just go watch a little TV and see if I can't get myself to get sleepy again. TTFN