So It Finally Hit Me

It has stuck me hard that I am finally a grown up. Sounds kind of silly, right? To me, it is a revelation that has taken time for me to see. Though life continues to fly by, I still feel like 19 year old I was when I married my husband 9 years ago. But as I sit here, alone with my children, I have been hit with the reality of being all grown. My husband is gone for the night, which leaves me here at home with our kids...alone. I know there are many mothers out there who are left home alone all night with their kids on a regular basis. For me, this is a first. And after 9 years of marriage this is only the third time my husband and I have been apart all night. This is the first time with the kids for me. I am not fearful, but it does feel weird. I am not saying that I feel unable to tend to my children (they'll be asleep any way). I just simply hate being away from my husband. I am going to miss him terribly tonight and know that I am not going to sleep much do to his absence. But here I sit, all grown with a family of my own. It is way to real to me that I am an adult who is responsible not only for myself but for two others (three including my hubby). It is actually something I am very proud of.

As I mentioned Mike is gone for the night. He is at North Side Hospital having a sleep test done. We have been concerned for the last year or so that he may have sleep apnea. I have two brothers-in-law who have this and to be honest, I'll be surprised if Mike does not have it. He snores terribly and is constantly tired. It has caused him to not function on a "normal" level for a long time but we never knew that sleep apnea can effect so many aspects of your life not just snoring. There was actually an article on my homepage just tonight about sleep apnea. If you are interested you can read it here. I hope that it all works out and it can be taken care. It has robbed him of enough of his life that I want to see him get back to normal.

Our Christmas was great this year. We spent Christmas Eve afternoon at my in-laws enjoying each others company, good food, and good presents! My son, on the other hand, made things a bit challenging. I have never seen him behave the way he did on Christmas Eve. He pretty much acted like a spoiled brat and my son is not that at all. Discipline is a must and we are working on new ways of discipline that hopefully will be much more effective. All in all though, Christmas was great. I will post pics once I have them all uploaded.

Well, I should be going to bed, not that I will sleep much. So until next time...