Uncertainties

It is well known that life is full of them. It's not something one would like to experience but we all do. I hate that my family has been facing so many uncertainties lately.

One thing is certain and that is those who have given of themselves for our family. What has been most surprising is the people in which I thought I could count on to be able to lean upon have just about disappeared, vanished. This has hurt me more than I can express! It is hard because I know that we all handle things differently and on different levels. But what I am having a hard time understanding is why people don't care. I'm talking people who are supposed to be like family or are family. People who call us best friends. Where are they when my family is hurting? Where is the support that we have given in such times as this in there lives? I am not keep tabs on who gives and who doesn't. Really, I'm not. But we have put ourselves out there many times for different people who now seem to find other mundane things more important. My own mom told me she basically "didn't have the time" because she had "other commitments" (which happened to be volunteer work). And you want to hear something funny? There have been people that have completely surprised me in there willingness to do whatever they can to help. People like my friend Jeannie who lives in Germany and happens to be coming home this week. She has insisted on helping some way either by taking my kids to give us a break or to make us a meal. That really meant a lot to me. That is generosity, let me tell you! Or how about my sister-in-law's best friend hugging me and giving me the support that I needed to hear at just the moment that I needed to hear it (thank you by the way!). More than I can say for those who call me "best friend". It just baffles me. Don't get me wrong. There really has been an outpouring of support from people. For those who have, I am very thankful and will take them up on their offers to help when the time comes.

I'm sorry for my little pitty party. I guess I've just realized which are the genuine relationships and which are just superficial. It's sad how certain circumstances bring out the worst in people (and yet the best in others). I am learning this even about myself and how weak I really am. I have learned how weak my emotions are in trying times. How terrible it is how I cave into them. I have "lost it" much more and more often than my husband. I wish so much that I could have some of his strength. I guess this is just another area in our lives where God knew what He was doing by bringing us together. Just another area where we balance each other out. The areas I am weak, Michael is strong. I'm sure there maybe some area where I may be strong and he is weak...like Madden Football maybe!! HEHE. You know what I mean. ;)

I think my emotions are heightened by my feeling under the weather. I have been battling this cold/sinus stuff for almost two weeks now. I had gotten over it once and a few days later caught it again. I'm trying not to go to the Dr. because we have gone so much with the kids in the last couple of months that I hate to spend the money (especially if it's just a virus). Lot's of rest, as much as possible, has been my medicine. So, on that note, I think it's time for some more "medicine". I hope everyone has a good week. 'Til next time...