Sunday, March 25, 2007

How I Long for Sleep

This night has been near unbearable. As I type away, or should I say pound, I hear the chipper voice of my youngest child who had me up a record number of 8 times last night, all between the hours of 11:30 and 6:15. The cause is the lunch I ate that has not agreed with either of our stomachs. I, would have slept fine though she obviously is another story. Somehow I managed through most of the night with patience and peace. I am now at a breaking point. While under normal circumstances it is a joy to hear her happy voice in the morning it is now sounding a bit like fingernails down a chalkboard. My patience and peace are being overrun by tiredness and fatigue. Quickly I am becoming resentful of the fact that my husband and son are tucked soundly in their beds...comfy and warm...asleep. Please forgive my rantings for this is just the post of a mother in need of some sleep. My heart is not angry, just tired. I know my daughter, and I know her all too well. Her happy voice is going to change to that of a tired girl who is just as sleepy as her momma. She will then want to be held until she falls back to sleep just to wake again in two hours. Why? Because she is very much set into her routine...lack of sleep or not. She only had two 20 minute naps ALL day yesterday. Had I not had that spicy soup maybe she would have slept. She has been consistent in sleeping 10-11 hours straight every night for the past week and a half. This has broken that. I was spoiled and now I must tend to my sleepy child's needs and then...hopefully my own. Again, forgive my rantings. I was in much need of some venting and at this hour this has been a great therapy. Here's to getting some sleep.

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