A Little Bit of the "Blahs"

I'm just feeling out of sorts today. I think it's just some internal things that I am working on. Though I don't believe it is postpartum, I do think it is my mind trying to bring me down. I have been struggling with a lot of issues that have come up in my life over the last few months, let alone the last year. Top it off with about 30 pounds of extra weight that I hate carrying around and there ya have it. A blah day. I planned a surprise 30th birthday luncheon for a dear friend of mine and I took pictures to place in an album for her as her gift. I had her sister take a couple pictures of the two of us for me and I hate both of them. And not because she didn't take them well either. I just hate that I have gained so much weight since having the kids. But I'm most frustrated with the fact that I have gained 10 pounds since the first of the year. I think it's partly stress. I recently cute back on sugar, way back. I have been limiting my sugar intake because it is one of the few things I can do while still nursing the baby. I plan to get myself into a workout schedule soon so that I can be proactive. So, enough of my pity party.

I have been feeling down tonight in particular and I think it is because I am feeling inspired to work on my photography and haven't been able to work on it. I just haven't had the time. Right now would be a prime opportunity seeing as my hubby is working on the other computer and both kids are down for the night and have been for awhile. I want to pick up my camera and do something but what am I going to work on at 10:00 at night? I must say though, I feel happy about the decision on the black & white/antique thing. I have always loved photographing in black & white...as you can see here . I haven't updated the site in a looong time and intend on doing so soon. But, I believe that there is something truly timeless about those kinds of photos. I will have that digital SLR one day and will be able to do even more of what I love doing. It is amazing how something can start as a hobby and just grow into such a love. A big thanks goes to Amy for confirming in me what I have felt for months about my photography. It is a great honor to have someone with so much more talent than I complement me and help spur me on. :0)

Not much in other news. I am just so happy that this coming week is going to be AWESOME! The temps are to be in the 60's all week. We are having my niece over to stay the night next Saturday for her birthday, which was on the 15th. She turned 9. This is so hard for me to believe. Instead of the normal gift of clothes or money, I decided to see if she wanted to come stay the night and then the next day I'd take her out shopping and we'd do the whole girl thing. To surprise her and her family I plan to take some photos while she is here. She is always asking me to do her hair and paint her nails, why not make a photo shoot out of it? She'll love it! Oh, and how sweet is this?!! Her older brother Josh, just turned 11 in January. For his birthday we just gave him money because when they (the boys especially) get to that age I have not idea what they like and dislike. It's better to just give them money and let them decided. So when he found out his sister was coming to stay the night he was really hurt. I guess he went into the other room and laid his head on the table and began to cry. When my sister asked him what was wrong he asked why we didn't do that for his birthday. My sister was just as surprised as I was to his reaction. I figured once he got older he would not want to do those things any more. We use to watch him and his sister A LOT! We always did things with them before having our own kids. It's been awhile and I guess he would rather be with us than get the money. SO, after Bethany stays next weekend, the following week they have spring break so we told him towards the end of the week both of them could come up and stay a night together. We'll make a big night of it. I just found it hard to believe at his age, spending time with us meant that much to him. I was really touched. We really do miss those kids and I am SO look forward to spending time with them. Not to mention Camden adores them, even though there are quite a few years between them. It will be fun.

Well, believe it or not I think I'm off to bed. We are actually going to be singing at our old church tomorrow night. We've had plenty of time to decide what we are singing but do you think we have it narrowed down yet? Nope. We have had several things this month, every weekend is busy. It's been hard to find time to squeeze anything in let alone practice. Guess it will be a last minute decision. Some times those turn out to be the best ones...we'll see. Good night everyone and have a very sunny week!