It really does feel at times like it pours. I'm feeling pretty wiped out emotionally and physically today. My patience for my trying son are falling very short and I feel like I just need an escape. It is hard for me to say that openly but yet in the same breath it is freeing. I am only one person who, right now, feels as though I am doing the work of four. This has been a tough week emotionally and on top of it all Camden has been sick with a bad cold and pinkeye. This winter seems to be dragging on and we all are suffering from cabin fever. I don't feel as though I have gotten out very much this winter. I will be very glad to have nice weather and play dates (both for Camden and Mommy).
As I mentioned in a earlier post that another family crisis came upon us this past week. Again, without going into great detail, someone very close to me attempted to commit suicide. Just before so, this person called me late at night. It was quite obviouse that they had been drinking and I have gone through this in the past with this person. After a very buligernt out burst and being hung up on, I returned to what I was doing before heading to bed. I was then woke up at 1:30 and told what happened. I just don't understand sometimes why we go through the things that we do. In the last year we have suffered a miscarriage, almost losing my brother, my mother falling and having surgery, losing my grandmother, losing my brother-in-law's dad, sickness left and right, my niece being in a serious car accident, and now almost losing this family member. I am struggling with so many mixed emotions that I have had to take a step back this week and just spend time talking to God about it all. It is a lot to sort through and I can't help but wonder how much more my family is going to endure. I know that God has a purpose in everything, but I have to ask what He might be doing through all of this because it sure seems like a lot.
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