I am bummed out right now. Depressed a little too. I even shed a few tears this morning as I crawled back into bed instead of getting up to go to church. I was up much of the night hearing the coughs of my children and struggling to swallow past the soreness in my throat. I was aching all over again and woke with a terrible headache. I knew. I knew each time I awoke through out the night feeling miserable. I knew it when I hear my kids cough so hard I thought they just might throw up. I couldn't go. How could I get past the way I felt? How could I enjoy myself when I feel so icky? How could I abandon my kids knowing they were not feeling well? And to top it all off my sister-in-law was to help us out with the kids and now her daughter is sick. Do you think I was supposed to stay home? I know I was but not without feeling down about it. I'm trying not to feel to upset about it. But it's hard not to.
I have never had an opportunity like this. At least not since having both of my kids. I have never spend more than a few hours away from them. The circumstances surrounding our living arrangements have been difficult and I was really looking forward to some "me" time. And I feel selfish saying that. But getting to the heart of the matter, I really wanted this time away. I feel as though I needed it. I looked forward to getting to know some of these ladies better and I really looked forward to the time with my sister. OK, I'm going to stop now because I feel my eyes welling up again. It seems so silly to be so emotional about this.
OK, enough of that.
So, in hopes of getting my spirits up I am listening to Christmas music. Christmas will be so bittersweet this year. But, there is something about the thought of the twinkling lights on the tree, the smell of cookies or pies baking, and the music filling the air that gets me excited. I am really excited because right after we move in we will put up the tree and decorate our home! But, I wonder what it is exactly about Christmas music that is almost spell-like? As I listen I just get so full of joy! I don't think I have ever listened to Christmas music before Thanksgiving until these past few years. I can see why Karin loves Christmas.
Well, I must go get some more medicine and get my little girl down for her nap. I hope everyone enjoys their Sunday. Until next time...TTFN
3 comments:
I am bummed for you too! There is a reason why you all started to feel under the weather. God will make sure that you get another opportunity to go on a get a way! HUGGING YOU!!! I hope you all start to feel better! I will be praying.
Beth,
I am so sorry that you did not get to go and that you are not feeling well. Hoping that another opportunity arises really soon for you to get some much needed me time. We all need that every once in a while. Rejuvinates us!
Have a good night!
Mimi
Oh NO!!! I'm so sorry it got cancelled. :-( I hope you can get away sometime soon. ANd that everyone feels better soon!
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