More Interesting

I believe that I am simply boring. There is nothing particularly wonderful about my life that makes me any different than any other average person. I wake and sleep every day just like every one else. I eat and drink and do your average daily chores. I take pride in the work that I do and who I am but I'm boring. The worst thing about it is I know who I am inside and who I want to be but actually having the ability to bring forth those things is another story. Have you ever just lacked that boldness to be who you know you really are? I think one step more, I lack the knowledge in how to birth those things that are laying deep beneath the surface. I have visions of the things I see myself doing and yet I don't even know where to begin. In the past different circumstances inhibited me from doing what I wanted with my life. Now, I have become much better at not allowing my surrounds to effect me and I'm left stumped. My intentions in saying all of this is to simply try to figure out where to begin. I don't want to live half my life and look back and say "I should have done something when I was younger". I don't want to allow myself to be held back any more. Mike and I have had this conversation so many times. It's hard to express. I have all of these goals and aspirations for my life but have no idea where to even begin because it all feels so overwhelming. And in my case, I have simply just become boring in the process, though I know this is not who I truly am. So I want to be more interesting because I know it's in me. There is so much more to who I am that I haven't let be seen. I don't want to impress, I just want to be me. The me I know is much less boring and I know I'll get there. There is so much more substance to who I am.