Here I go again. On this same path I've been down before. I HATE IT!! I am struggling with feeling like I'm lost and without a place to fit in. This on-going dilemma is driving me crazy. It's a vicious circle I find myself in from time to time. I don't know if it's a lack of security in who I am or just a true longing for relationship. Since having Camden I've allowed myself to slip out of the relationship building circle. Don't get me wrong, those whom I'm close to I feel as though I'm getting closer. But I feel that I have not built new relationships in a looooong time!! It's like a hunger that is not being feed. Even those I'm close to I feel as though I could be closer. And I desire REAL GENUINE relationship. I'm tired of superficial relationships that go absolutely nowhere!! I need to be secure in my relationship, first and foremost, with God. I know that then and only then can I be secure in the relationships that I do have and those that I will make. I hope that God will give me that security.
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I LOVE YOU SWEETIE.:) WE WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES TO FIX THESE THINGS. GIVE ME A CALL. WE SHALL TALK ABOUT IT.
P.S. YOU DON'T HAVE TO CALL
P.S.S. I'M SERIOUS. I DON'T WANT YOU TO LACK SOMETHING THAT YOU NEED , OR WANT. WE WILL WORK ON IT.
I found you! Halleluja!
I can relate to feelings of lostness and not fitting in.It seems to be my lot in life.
Don't worry about it. I believe God will bring those things you desire and the right relationships. Don't fret. I mean you have adjusted into a new life of motherhood. That is all time consuming!There are always seasons in life. This season may have been the way it was supposed to be for a reason.
The eye is starting to creep me out. It keeps looking straight at me.
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