Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Honestly Stupid
That is how I am feeling right now. Be it true or not, I just feel so stupid. I lack so much depth in my life and I hate that and I feel as though I am unable to gain ground on this journey I'm hiking. It's like I'm wondering in a unknown land, yet it's a land I have been to before. I know which way to go, but I haven't been able to pull it out of that part of my brain that has it hidden. The knowledge is there, I just haven't tapped into it therefor I'm wandering aimlessly, gaining no heighth. What is it going to take for me to see the signs that are right under my nose, pointing me in the right direction? It's like I'm now not only wandering aimlessly, but now I'm doing so blindly. But, see I'm not really blind, though that is what I think. When in reality, my eyes are just closed. All I have to do is open them, read the signs, and move forward in those directions. I can't even tell you when I became blinded and aimless. This hiker has got to open her eyes. Even if I don't see the signs right away, I know I need to search for them. I think I need to go back and reread "Hind's Feet on High Places".
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I know exactly how you feel - I'm struggling to get out of that slump at the moment myself. It's really time for a change. I'm tired of the same old ideas and thoughts running through my head; I want new ones, fresh ones, deeper ones. I desperately need to be more Christ-centered, but not in a "la la la, Jesus is cool" way - I need to put my faith into practical daily use.
And Hind's Feet is an excellent, excellent book. I could stand to reread it, too. Good idea, that.
I've never read it, though I've always meant to. Maybe it's time I picked it up. I could read it at work. haha:-)
I know all about the slump as well, I've been in one for awhile too and I hate it.
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